MONDAY OF HOLY WEEK
Monday, April 10
Liz Bullard
Class of 2020

 

Waiting… still waiting… God, where are You?

 

“Wait for the Lord, take courage; be stouthearted, wait for the Lord!” -Psalm 27:14

 

It can be hard to see God as a loving Father when He doesn't seem to be answering your prayers, and you feel as if He is nowhere to be found. Did He hear me? Why don't I feel anything when I pray? God, why would You let this happen? Why won’t You just tell me what You want me to do?

 

To those who are experiencing this spiritual dryness, or whose hearts are hurting while waiting for God to make His will known to them: you are not alone, and God allowed you to feel this way for a reason. Why? When you can no longer rely on your understanding and recognize that God is all you have left, you are allowing yourself to fall into the arms of Jesus, fully dependent on Him. If God is all you have, you have all that you need. The Footprints in the Sand poem perfectly demonstrates this: our faith journey is a constant walk with Jesus. When the second pair of footprints disappears, it’s not because He has deserted, or left you. He is carrying you.

 

During times filled with desolations and waiting, I have found great comfort in the song While I’m Waiting by John Waller. A few of his lyrics read:

 

                I’m waiting on You, Lord.

                Though it is painful, patiently I will wait.

                While I’m waiting, I will serve You.

                While I’m waiting, I will worship.

 

Let this be your prayer. Don’t stop giving of yourself, don't stop showing up to Mass, do not stop clinging to Jesus with every bit of strength you have left. Even if you feel like you’re just going through the motions, do it anyway. It is when we are suffering that we are closest to Christ. Unite your pain to the cross; He died for you.

 

Lord, help me to rely on You fully. Help me to trust You. Help me to understand how much You love me. Help me to know that Your plan is perfect, and so is Your timing. Amen.

 

Is 42: 1-7              Ps 27:1, 2, 3, 13-14            Heb 9:11-15        Jn 12:1-11